“Integrating the shadow.” I’ve written a lot about positivity. I’ve called myself an optimist. I am that. But that’s not all I am. We all have a dark layer beneath. 

 “The line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being. And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart?”

Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn


Evil is a bit of a strong term for what I’m talking about here. But the darkness I speak of is the seed for evil if nurtured too much. We’re all born with this seed preplanted and it can’t be removed.

I think my dark roots extend a little deeper and further than most peoples’. I sought to defeat the darkness by learning to yield the light. Bad move. My focus on positivity wasn’t a cure for pain. I became a splintered person, with distance growing between the parts of me. By judging parts of myself I upset the balance. I’m now living in balance. In ACCEPTANCE of who I am. The light and the dark.